I've been spoiled for the last 4 1/2 years.
After we had Jake, we moved to Logan where Steve worked really long days, but came home for lunch almost every day.
School started and even though he had long days, he was always near by and could come home almost at any time, if things were really bad with the kids or I was sick or whatever.
Got even more spoiled when we moved into campus housing and he could walk or take the bus and be home soon.
He then quit his job at Lowe's for an on campus job.
I guess what I'm trying to say, I haven't been truly alone with the kids since the day Jake was born.
I feel even more alone than ever before because we just moved into a new city. Haven't had time enough to make new friends. Although, I'm working on it, but that's just going to take some time.
So, here I am. For the first time, I'm home alone with four kids. No husband just around the corner at work, or even in the same state. And even though today is seeming to be a good day, I still feel overwhelmed and so alone right now.
Now, I know what I was getting myself into when we choose this path. I have talked tons of wife of auditors that work for one of the big four. And I always heard the same thing, they are never home.
But still, nothing can prepare you for feeling so alone and forgotten and sad then just having moved to a new city, just had a baby, your husband thousands of miles away and stuck in a house by yourself with four little ones.
Pity party for me?
But at least I'm trying to make friends. I went to a clogging group this morning (I will be doing the beginners group in a few weeks), and a I'll be going to playgroup tomorrow and then to a Relief Society Birthday dinner party (got a baby-sitter for that). So at least I'm trying to get out there and make friends and keeping busy instead of indulging in watching either all 5 Harry Potter movies or Twilight (although, that might still happen).
I hope that Steve is doing well in his first real day on the job. After a week and half of training and week in the office unassigned, he's on his first client job in Anchorage, Alaska. See, I wasn't lying about the thousands of miles away.
So wish me luck on this new adventure. Hope and pray that I can get my big fat but out of this house and make some friends and not feel so alone and sad for me. That's not going to help anything. Maybe some Edward or Harry can take my mind off that too!
After we had Jake, we moved to Logan where Steve worked really long days, but came home for lunch almost every day.
School started and even though he had long days, he was always near by and could come home almost at any time, if things were really bad with the kids or I was sick or whatever.
Got even more spoiled when we moved into campus housing and he could walk or take the bus and be home soon.
He then quit his job at Lowe's for an on campus job.
I guess what I'm trying to say, I haven't been truly alone with the kids since the day Jake was born.
I feel even more alone than ever before because we just moved into a new city. Haven't had time enough to make new friends. Although, I'm working on it, but that's just going to take some time.
So, here I am. For the first time, I'm home alone with four kids. No husband just around the corner at work, or even in the same state. And even though today is seeming to be a good day, I still feel overwhelmed and so alone right now.
Now, I know what I was getting myself into when we choose this path. I have talked tons of wife of auditors that work for one of the big four. And I always heard the same thing, they are never home.
But still, nothing can prepare you for feeling so alone and forgotten and sad then just having moved to a new city, just had a baby, your husband thousands of miles away and stuck in a house by yourself with four little ones.
Pity party for me?
But at least I'm trying to make friends. I went to a clogging group this morning (I will be doing the beginners group in a few weeks), and a I'll be going to playgroup tomorrow and then to a Relief Society Birthday dinner party (got a baby-sitter for that). So at least I'm trying to get out there and make friends and keeping busy instead of indulging in watching either all 5 Harry Potter movies or Twilight (although, that might still happen).
I hope that Steve is doing well in his first real day on the job. After a week and half of training and week in the office unassigned, he's on his first client job in Anchorage, Alaska. See, I wasn't lying about the thousands of miles away.
So wish me luck on this new adventure. Hope and pray that I can get my big fat but out of this house and make some friends and not feel so alone and sad for me. That's not going to help anything. Maybe some Edward or Harry can take my mind off that too!
3 comments:
I'm so sorry! I've thought about that alot because I've definitely been spoiled with extra help from Justin since living here. I hope that things get better and I'm sure that you'll make friends soon and that always helps. Good luck and definitely watch some Harry...
You can do it. We can both do it. As much as neither one of us really want to. Thanks for your words of encouragement!
It sounds like you're really trying to get out there and do stuff! That's awesome! I really, really hate moving. I've never lived anywhere for more than 4 years. Things will work out, though! Good luck!
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