Just to be clear

You'll have to forgive me for my terrible post about the disappointment of having another boy. Those of you that have had a baby girl, they are the best, cutest little things and are seriously just too darn cute! And when you have a Zoe, born with black curly hair and dimples, it's not hard to wish to have that again. Let me explain, if you haven't already heard this. When ever I have found out that I'm pregnant, Steve gives me a blessing. And every time he gets an impression of what our child will be. With this child, he felt that it was a girl. Looking back, we think that maybe Steve wasn't in tune with the Spirit (it was late at night and my grandmother died that day, so we were all very emotional and tired and anxious about my flight the next day) and it was Steve's wish or will that made him think it was a girl. Anyways, we were both disappointed to see that we were wrong. And on top of that, the doctors office was running really behind and we spent 2 hours in the doctor's office with a poopy child (we forgot a diaper bag, we didn't think we'd be there for 2 hours) and two cranky kids, one of which finally fell asleep. So we were cranky and upset about the wait at the doctor's office and disappointed that we were wrong. I think that's something key ya'll should look at. We were disappointed that we were wrong, not that we were having a boy. There is a difference. After a day of knowing this, and looking back to my feelings yesterday, I was never really upset over the fact we're having another boy. Just that we were wrong. And I didn't know that or could separate my feelings well enough yesterday to realize that, and couldn't express my feelings correctly. Thanks to those of you who can empathize with us. Having a baby girl is so much different than from having a baby boy. But boys are cute and fun and I love all my boys! But, it's also my boys that give me my biggest headache. And, from research done while pregnant with Jake and Zoe, I found out that having two children close in age and the same sex, creates an atmosphere of sibling rivalry while growing up and maybe even into adulthood. They may never be great friends. I've seen that with my brothers, with my sister-in-law (we talked about this yesterday so this is something she told me about her boys) and with other families I have talked with. It doesn't mean that it will happen. Leo is a wonderful child and a very sweet spirit. I can't imagine him being like this. And as for the "frilly stuff, bows and headbands" I don't do it. I, for one, think it is the most nastiest thing to see on a baby girl. A huge bow that isn't very cute in the first place and is as big as their head. I never did anything like that with Zoe. Maybe a few bows here and there that I got from the hospital when she was born, but didn't get any of those flower bows that are as big as their head until she was 2. And even then, I don't put them in her hair that often now. That is not the reason why we want a girl. So don't put your words into actions that I don't do. I guess that means you don't know me all that well then. Sorry, but that is just not a valid and only reason to have a girl. To get a girl in our family, well, girls are gems. In my family there are only 2 girls and 3 boys. And in Steve's family, there is 2 girls with 4 boys. My sister-in-law says that in her family it's a 1 and 6 shot of having a girl. And so far, all of the girls that are in the family, they are in one family a piece. So, to have another girl, would be a gift. And that's all that we wanted. But to have another boy, that's a gift as well. We know that this is who is suppose to be in our family now. And we couldn't be happier to have another spirit in our family. We are excited to meet this lil' guy. And I'm excited to have boy in the summer time. I can't wait to see him in cute summer outfits and to have summer birthday parties. Do you know how hard it's going to be to have a birthday party for Jake near Thanksgiving? Or to have a birthday party for Leo when it's busy season and Steve won't be around? And do you even realize that Zoe and this baby will have birthdays maybe a week apart? Yeah, that's going to be fun.

So, just to be clear. We are excited to be having this baby boy. No matter what, we are excited to be able to be so blessed to have another sweet spirit enter in our home. We know that he is going to bring us such joy. Even if there is non-stop fighting and my sanity goes out the window, it'll be all ok. Because our kids are the best. We have been blessed with really good kids (even if I don't think so all the time, they really are) and I can't wait to finally meet all of our kids that we get to have! Now, if only we could pick out a name for this guy. Then I can stop calling him and lil' guy or baby boy. I need a name!